2010

Well hello everyone, once again i have neglected this thing like most of us neglected those nano pets when we were kids.

Well, at the urging of one Nicole Oliver I have decided to dust this old blog off, and post some of my musings over the past little while.

Well, Working at Sherwin Williams is fun and by fun I mean its almost as much fun as you can have as work, excluding playboy photographer of course, Pay is sudo-good and they just gave me a key to the store, So....yeah, I must be doing something right there eh?

I digress....

It seems that everyone (me included) is believing that the year 2010 (pronounced twenty ten, get it right people) Is this brand new hope. Its really just a new year that should allow most of us to rebuild our lives and maybe make a step forward, and make horrible new years resolutions that you will never ever ever ever ever ever never stick to. Plus, it allows us to wear funnys hats and make noise and drink on new years...its like St. Patricks day.

I think we should look at our lifes like a business. They work in quarters, every 3 months is a quarter to them. Hell, lets say that even Sherwin Williams has a bad first quarter they just reset at the end, and come at the end of the second quarter they reboud. EVERYONE forgets about that first quarter really.

So, I propose this radical idea.

Life is a series of small victories all bundled up into one big ball. Sometimes though, that ball can consume us, lets call it the black ball (not to be confused with its cousin, Blue.....*rim shot*) Just break up the ball and rather then let that big black ball hit you at once, and consume you. Break it down, and get through it

So.....well, hold on, going to light a cigarette....
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Okay, back to my point

Life is short people, its just how it is. We are here for 80 years (on average) which in the grand scheme of time is nothing. Considering the planet itself has been around for billions of years. Just make it something fun, Hell, if life is hard your doing something a bit wrong..

Here is a few tips from Uncle Yaz in this new year, to ensure it goes good.

-Pull your heads out of your asses. If your cranium requires instant removal from your anus.

-STOP BITCHING. People tend to not care about little minor ant hills that people seem to turn into mountains.

-Dont judge a book by its cover. It seems that we as a collective whole has strayed away from this point. People take one look at something, decide if they want to pursue it/like it., and leave it at that. People, sometimes it takes books 100 pages to get good and human beings are like that as well. People are very complex and sometimes you just have to get to know them before you realize "holy shit, this person is awesome"

-Take a breath. Sometimes we cannot just rely on the first emotion we feel when something happens good or bad. Just sit back, take a breath and actually think your action out.

-Be Happy. I cant seem to stress this one enough. People just want to be consumed by negativity that will eventually destroy them.

-Listen, if your life sucks, DEAL with it. Make changes, show some fucking ambition to change the situation you are in. Life just is not going to hand you the answer, nor will it give in and say "Well, you have had it rough, so here is a gimme" Life is what you make it people

and last but certainly not least.

-Im pulling for you everyone, we are all in this mess together so we just have to learn to exist with eachother and play nice sometimes.

Until Next Time
-Yaz

Damn...

Im glad this blog is not like a child, or else it would of been taken from me months ago for neglect.

Been farily busy as of late, trying to get fit in at my new job, which I think I have got to a point where I feel comfortable enough to be really happy and cut loose there.

Hell, the manager keeps telling me I'm going to work out, and he has been working at that company since '93. So i think He knows what he is talking about haha!

I keep getting dumb people that come in, and ask the dumb questions, and its my job to be their knowledge base, and help point them in the right direction.

...Sometimes, its like the blind leading the more blind around...

I'll get there though, my work schedule is actually getting cut because one of the full time guys is coming back, and seeing as I am fill in, i get the short end of that stick.

Its alright though, now I get some time to reflect and think about where I am and how I am treating myself.

Tonight though, I have some thoughts burbling in my mind that I feel like getting out.

1) People. People are amazing, we are all snowflakes really and our differences often create chemistry, but many other times they create tension. When I look around at people and I'm amazed by their absolute stupidity. People would much rather go on existing than rather go out on a leaf, and try something new.

I mean...Holy damn, it might work, it might feel better, and I might like it alot more, but I'm scared of it so I'll just keep doing the same thing for the next 40 years, and then realize that I have wasted my life.

Whatever, to each their own.

2) GTFO. As much as I may like where I am geographically, I'm starting to think more and more I need to get out and start new somewhere. Where? No clue. I know that I am going to have to go to a place where I can be happy and make my style of life work.

I will post more on that later, but I really am starting to feel too complacent where I am at. To me, thats when I know I need a change.

3) North Central. FUCK you. I dont know how one place can fuck up as much as that, and still be known as a "good college". Its amazing the amount of stupidity that is there, and just how If they used just that little more common sense, how much more efficent that place would run.

As a faculty member once told me (one of the few people that actually give a damn, and care about people) "It sucks so bad, to work so hard and to go and have those other people go and fuck it up."

Thats all I got to say about that.

4) Love. haha, nah, I wont talk about that, I could fill up 4 pages with how I feel about that tricky subject right now, but I dont think anyone wants to read my ranting and raving about that....or do they?

5) Life. For the most part, I am happy with what I am doing. I feel more confidence in myself than I have felt in myself for a long while. I feel that i can get shit done, and get it done right. I dont feel like that guy who is constantly looking for some form of acceptance. Hell, now i am at that point where i am saying, Hate me if you want, love me if you can.

I know I may come across as a bitter old man to most people sometimes, and come across as very rough around the edges. The people who know me best though know why I act that way, and know why I go about things the way I do.

Call me odd, off the wall, random, a few notches of the dial below sane. Doesnt bother me at all.

Well.. I think im going to end this now, before I get into that rambling mode and start talking on and on about the current social economic enviornment of Northern Michigan. (which trust me, I think I could do that).

Its late, I have to be up in...less than 6 hours, time for me to rest my mind for another night of peace and solitude.

Until next time Kiddies
-Yaz

Damn, I need to do better at this

Okay, I know I know I said I was going to keep this more up to date and here I go 12 days between posts. Really though between work and a few other things I haven't had a WHOLE lot to report, unless you like hearing about the minor things I do.

I never really thought about how detail based working at a paint store is. People come in and just want paint, thats what they say "We want a paint to paint a bedroom" and then I have to ask about 5 questions to direct them.

Its alot for my polish brain to wrap its head around.

Also, It only took me 3 days to break something at my new job. As I was tossing a small football around in the back and proceeded to take out a florescent light. If anyone has not seen one of those lights break...its pretty damn cool and I would advise it to anyone.

Well seing as I dont have much to say today, I will throw out two websites that I think everyone should visit.

http://www.textsfromlastnight.com/

Its a website that people have submitted texts they have either sent or received, and my god its funny, here is a sample....

(843): the red head has a bf
(1-843): just because there's a goalie doesn't mean u can't score

http://www.fmylife.com/

This is a website where people subtmit their stories from their lives where things have kinda fallen apart, for example....

Today, I received my passport in the mail. They got my birthdate wrong. Then I picked up my birth certificate that I had sent in with the application. Turns out my parents have been celebrating my birthday on the wrong day for 16 years. FML

Thats all for today kiddies, more to come later this week. =) I promise this time

Until Next Time
-Yaz

My Feet hurt, but im happy

Today I started at my new job. On my feet pretty much from 8am to 4pm, my feet hurt and im feeling farily tired, but I couldnt be happier...

No, im not a sicko who gets off on that sort of things, just follow along...

Back in December and Into January, I watched pretty much everything that I was used to fall apart. I had steady work since I was 16, and went to college straight out of high school, and in what seemed like an instant, it all went away.

No job, no college, no NOTHING.

It really felt as if I was driving down a straight stretch of open desert just after leaving Las Vegas. A whole lot of nothing around. I was down, many people will tell you that fact. It was just really hard getting up and getting going for absolutely nothing.

Someone once said, A Change will do you good. It took me about 4 months to realize just how good a change did do me. (giggity)

I got to be able to live a dream, and play in a band. I have been able to support myself when all the odds are stacked against me. I really found out who was there for me and who could be left behind. I really have learned more about myself in the past 4 months than I have learned about myself in the past 4 years.

Its taken me a bit to not be angry at how things have happened lately. I had all the reasons to bitch and complain about things, and I know I did a few times, and I did have a few down spots, but we as human beings are prone to experience those things.

I know this blog is kinda jumping around right now but these are how things are entering my mind.

I have some staind playing right now, drinking a Dr. Pepper Cherry and knowing that things are starting to look up for ol yaz.

And for that, I am happy.

Until Next Time
-Yaz

Its Alive

Yep. Its coming back..

About damn time I payed any form of attention to this thing.

I will start working again here soon enough, working in a Paint Store. Lord I cannot imagine the stories that are going to come of this.

I also need to just get back to letting my mind wander while there is a text box and a keyboard near by, or else Ill start screaming at little children and pregnant women.

Or..little pregnant women...

I digress, I will pay more attention to this though, I promise.

Until Next Time
-Yaz

Fuck Finals

Yep, that's right, I said it. FUCK final exams.

I don't know when the term Final meant, dump everything on you at the very end of the semester and see if you can remember the tiniest of details from the 2nd week.

Kinda feels like i'm being fucked by a gorilla right now.

In about an hour, im going to go take the 2nd half of my math Final, the first half went alright, struggled through alot of it, but I made it.

Looking ahead at this stuff today, I am screwed.

The square root of 6x-3 + 7 = 6

Yep, and there is some other shit on there that looks like square roots humping square roots, and fractions piled on top of fractions

...FUCK!

Until next time
-Yaz

Guess Who's back, back again....

Yaz is back...tell some......women?

and thats why I don't rap, but I digress....

Been ignoring this blog something fierce, but there has been too much going on in my life, but we are back and a Intend on bringing this back.

Well, first of all, let me say, College.

Now, I know some of you get different visions when you hear the word "college" probably think of a place of higher learning, or a place for kids to party at. I hear the word college any more, and I shudder.

Let me say this, FUCK YOU North Central Michigan College. All of your employees that are not instructors are worthless fucking people. Infact, the director of Financial aid is so god damn worthless, that she makes Al Bundy look active, and like a good worker.

FUCK YOU for fucking all of this up. This isnt supposed to be as hard as this place is making it out to be. From a Housing director that has his head shoved so far up his own ass that he cant see the light of day, to the technology department.

Now, if you were an employer. And you had one employe that had worked for you for 3 years, for the lowest amount of pay that you can come up with. (minimum wage for 3 years) and that person busted their ass for you, had a list of faculty and staff that would ask for him specificly first, and someone who is fairly easy to work with, Would you then tell that person that there is no room in the budget for them for next semester?

If you answered yes, You would be my bosses...well...soon to be ex-bosses. And please remove your heads from your ass.

Thats the world im living in right now, Not only am I getting bent over and loaded like a shot gun one way, im getting it three ways.

And oh yeah, I still have 3 papers and a major project, and 2 tests to finish up this week.

....FUCK

Alright I feel better.

Thats the position im in. Im not going to be living on campus, more than likely not taking a full credit load to graduate, and now, I wont be working on campus. Yeah, maybe I have a right to be angry...or atleast fruestrated.

So, now im looking for work. Like 11 percent of Emmet County and 8 percent of Michigan right now.

Guess if all else fails, I can be the Texas Tech Bell Ringer.


Until next time my few readers, if any.
-Yaz