Damn...

Im glad this blog is not like a child, or else it would of been taken from me months ago for neglect.

Been farily busy as of late, trying to get fit in at my new job, which I think I have got to a point where I feel comfortable enough to be really happy and cut loose there.

Hell, the manager keeps telling me I'm going to work out, and he has been working at that company since '93. So i think He knows what he is talking about haha!

I keep getting dumb people that come in, and ask the dumb questions, and its my job to be their knowledge base, and help point them in the right direction.

...Sometimes, its like the blind leading the more blind around...

I'll get there though, my work schedule is actually getting cut because one of the full time guys is coming back, and seeing as I am fill in, i get the short end of that stick.

Its alright though, now I get some time to reflect and think about where I am and how I am treating myself.

Tonight though, I have some thoughts burbling in my mind that I feel like getting out.

1) People. People are amazing, we are all snowflakes really and our differences often create chemistry, but many other times they create tension. When I look around at people and I'm amazed by their absolute stupidity. People would much rather go on existing than rather go out on a leaf, and try something new.

I mean...Holy damn, it might work, it might feel better, and I might like it alot more, but I'm scared of it so I'll just keep doing the same thing for the next 40 years, and then realize that I have wasted my life.

Whatever, to each their own.

2) GTFO. As much as I may like where I am geographically, I'm starting to think more and more I need to get out and start new somewhere. Where? No clue. I know that I am going to have to go to a place where I can be happy and make my style of life work.

I will post more on that later, but I really am starting to feel too complacent where I am at. To me, thats when I know I need a change.

3) North Central. FUCK you. I dont know how one place can fuck up as much as that, and still be known as a "good college". Its amazing the amount of stupidity that is there, and just how If they used just that little more common sense, how much more efficent that place would run.

As a faculty member once told me (one of the few people that actually give a damn, and care about people) "It sucks so bad, to work so hard and to go and have those other people go and fuck it up."

Thats all I got to say about that.

4) Love. haha, nah, I wont talk about that, I could fill up 4 pages with how I feel about that tricky subject right now, but I dont think anyone wants to read my ranting and raving about that....or do they?

5) Life. For the most part, I am happy with what I am doing. I feel more confidence in myself than I have felt in myself for a long while. I feel that i can get shit done, and get it done right. I dont feel like that guy who is constantly looking for some form of acceptance. Hell, now i am at that point where i am saying, Hate me if you want, love me if you can.

I know I may come across as a bitter old man to most people sometimes, and come across as very rough around the edges. The people who know me best though know why I act that way, and know why I go about things the way I do.

Call me odd, off the wall, random, a few notches of the dial below sane. Doesnt bother me at all.

Well.. I think im going to end this now, before I get into that rambling mode and start talking on and on about the current social economic enviornment of Northern Michigan. (which trust me, I think I could do that).

Its late, I have to be up in...less than 6 hours, time for me to rest my mind for another night of peace and solitude.

Until next time Kiddies
-Yaz

Damn, I need to do better at this

Okay, I know I know I said I was going to keep this more up to date and here I go 12 days between posts. Really though between work and a few other things I haven't had a WHOLE lot to report, unless you like hearing about the minor things I do.

I never really thought about how detail based working at a paint store is. People come in and just want paint, thats what they say "We want a paint to paint a bedroom" and then I have to ask about 5 questions to direct them.

Its alot for my polish brain to wrap its head around.

Also, It only took me 3 days to break something at my new job. As I was tossing a small football around in the back and proceeded to take out a florescent light. If anyone has not seen one of those lights break...its pretty damn cool and I would advise it to anyone.

Well seing as I dont have much to say today, I will throw out two websites that I think everyone should visit.

http://www.textsfromlastnight.com/

Its a website that people have submitted texts they have either sent or received, and my god its funny, here is a sample....

(843): the red head has a bf
(1-843): just because there's a goalie doesn't mean u can't score

http://www.fmylife.com/

This is a website where people subtmit their stories from their lives where things have kinda fallen apart, for example....

Today, I received my passport in the mail. They got my birthdate wrong. Then I picked up my birth certificate that I had sent in with the application. Turns out my parents have been celebrating my birthday on the wrong day for 16 years. FML

Thats all for today kiddies, more to come later this week. =) I promise this time

Until Next Time
-Yaz

My Feet hurt, but im happy

Today I started at my new job. On my feet pretty much from 8am to 4pm, my feet hurt and im feeling farily tired, but I couldnt be happier...

No, im not a sicko who gets off on that sort of things, just follow along...

Back in December and Into January, I watched pretty much everything that I was used to fall apart. I had steady work since I was 16, and went to college straight out of high school, and in what seemed like an instant, it all went away.

No job, no college, no NOTHING.

It really felt as if I was driving down a straight stretch of open desert just after leaving Las Vegas. A whole lot of nothing around. I was down, many people will tell you that fact. It was just really hard getting up and getting going for absolutely nothing.

Someone once said, A Change will do you good. It took me about 4 months to realize just how good a change did do me. (giggity)

I got to be able to live a dream, and play in a band. I have been able to support myself when all the odds are stacked against me. I really found out who was there for me and who could be left behind. I really have learned more about myself in the past 4 months than I have learned about myself in the past 4 years.

Its taken me a bit to not be angry at how things have happened lately. I had all the reasons to bitch and complain about things, and I know I did a few times, and I did have a few down spots, but we as human beings are prone to experience those things.

I know this blog is kinda jumping around right now but these are how things are entering my mind.

I have some staind playing right now, drinking a Dr. Pepper Cherry and knowing that things are starting to look up for ol yaz.

And for that, I am happy.

Until Next Time
-Yaz

Its Alive

Yep. Its coming back..

About damn time I payed any form of attention to this thing.

I will start working again here soon enough, working in a Paint Store. Lord I cannot imagine the stories that are going to come of this.

I also need to just get back to letting my mind wander while there is a text box and a keyboard near by, or else Ill start screaming at little children and pregnant women.

Or..little pregnant women...

I digress, I will pay more attention to this though, I promise.

Until Next Time
-Yaz