Not sure if its the music that is playing, or my troubled mind, but something drove me to myspace. Something further made me want to write a blog, get a few things off of my chest, SO here we go.
1) People
Now, you may be asking yourself "Which people?" the people arent specific people. They are people as a whole. It seems like all i have been hearing lately is a whole lot of bitching and crying from a lot of people. Heres a tip, GROW THE FUCK UP!. Life is going to be hard, and im sorry its not the fucking disney movies that you have been watching, Life is going to be hard. Its like Gary Allan Sang "LIfe aint always beautiful", if your curious on how the rest of the song goes, look up the lyrics.
Another thing that tends to piss me off is talking heads.People who just talk because god gave them a voice box and a tounge. These people are on my radar screen tonight simply because they dont know how to shut up. They just talk and talk away, thinking they are getting somewhere. Here's a tip for you, sometimes you have to SHUT the FUCK up every once in a while to get somewhere. Maybe if you dont talk all the fucking time, you can hear what other people are saying.
2) Life
Now, I know that I said life aint easy, I think I am a walking testiment to that. But life in general has gotton under my skin. Maybe its because of the previous reasons? Not sure. Ever feel like you are taking one step foward, and then proceeding to take 3 backwards? YEP, thats how im feeling lately. Try and try as I must, I seemingly get no where. Its like sitting in a rocking chair, Yes, it does give me something to do, but it gets me no where.
Jesus, my English Teachers would shit their pants, im actually indenting my paragraphs. Thats a side note though. Life is what you make it, and i seem to have this wonderful ability to make it absolutely fucking difficult. Odd, I seem to be care free and happy. If people only knew what was rolling around in my old noggin from time to time, BUT, NO, that would be the irresponsible thing, I have to be a role model, I have to set the standard.. Ah well....Prices we have to pay.
3)Love.
Love...noun, verb, loved, lov·ing. –noun ..>..>..>..>
| 1. | a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. |
| 2. | a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend. |
| 3. | sexual passion or desire. |
| 4. | a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart. |
Odd that sexual is thrown in there, but I digress.
Love is that funny feeling that you have inside the pit of your stomach when someone that is the object of that feeling walks near. Its the most powerful emotion one can feel.
The thing about it, Love is an odd topic for me. While I have had great bouts of it, I also have had mis-fortune with it. Seems like its one of those topics that I seem to be in the rocking chair (see above for definition) about. It happens. I'll figure it out one day.
4) Pursuit of Happiness
No, im not going to review the movie that will smith starred in, Im talking about my own pursuit.
Its funny, we all want to find our own happiness. We all want to find the things within us that make us feel really good, and do things that bring us great pleasure. Right now, College is the farthest thing from that. With the amount of bull shit and politics (hmm..those two go hand in hand alot dont they?) that goes on, on a day to day basis. Classes, and it all. Fuck it. Im getting sick and fucking tired of being defined as a GPA. A series of numbers that dictate just where you rank in this college, Im Sick and tired of being a number. Im not a name to these people. I am just merely a fucking paycheck.
Speaking of Paychecks. It sucks when you have to work like the devil just to make ends meet, and by making ends meet. I mean trying to put a circle block into the square hole. Yeah, you get there, but you just dont quite get it. Ive been going for a long damn time, and I barely have much to show for it. But its okay. People are living nice off of mommy and daddy, why should they have to worry? When ever they want money, or want something, They go running to mommy and daddy, who have spoiled their children so fucking rotten, that once they are out into the real world, they will FAIL. It blows when you have to make everything happen by your self. I get help here and there, but its no where in comparison to what some of these other people get.
But hey, why be mad? I cant be mad because others are more fortunate then I am. Hell, sometimes thats just how life rolls. I know one thing though, at the end of the day, I appreciate everything that I do have that much more, because I KNOW in my head and in my heart that this is happening because of me. Everything I have, I have made happen.
5) Conclusion
In conclusion, I just want to let people know that I havnt snapped, I havnt gone off of the deep end, These are the thoughts that I have been kicking around in my head for a number of weeks now, and recently ive found the energy or the madness to let them all out. So, dont worry about me, I'll be alright.
Until Next Time
-Yaz
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